Beta finding

 Today I has discovered a book that was written by me and published by Eksmo. It was 2014, and I think I wrote it a year before. It was an order from freelancer's site. It was a hard work and a payment was inadequate, but still I did the best I could and got my money. I had no news about it since, and only today I occasionally saw it and read a couple of high positive reviews. It made my day!

 I am somewhere on the edge between happiness  and unsatisfaction. Though I have everything what I need, it's not so easy to accept it, to let all that in, to be fully there. I saw a post about professional achievements of one of my friends and felt a twinge of envy. I feel myself not fully realised in the "world of adults" - with my occupation, my career, and my income. But them I recall everything that I have and that she maybe would like to have also. Or maybe not, still my life is wonderful. I do have some achievements and there always be more to achieve, a "huge" more...

Today was the first time I had a session with a climbing psychologist. It was a price that I won after completing a study she needs. It was a choice between a session and some climbing books. And so I was interested in a session anyway, I have already that books. It was a real short session and we were talking about motivation. It's the most important thing. It's the only that matter, and being struggle with my motivation I struggle with everything. The lack of motivation turns everything in just a suffering, when otherwise it could be a poor joy. She noticed a contradiction between my mind and my heart. It seems that my mind takes over. But honestly it couldn't be a leader, but one that follows, organise everything and support.  This session left a warm feeling inside me.  I have only once had a conversation with a phycologist before. It wasn't a proper session, but the respond to my yelp for help. And it was extremely helpful. It was like saving my life or at least my...

 На вихідних ми вперше побували в Арко, в секторе La Gola, і це були перші дійсно скелі, заради яких варто проїхати пару годи, а не просто домашній райончик. Скелі позначені наче літні, проте лазити було спекотно навіть в тіні - частина грота ніколи не попадає на сонце, але вона не така велика, а сонце і спека настільки близькі, що ефект сауни наступає навіть на найпростіших трасах. Мені сподобалися всі траси, які я пробувала, хоча пролізла я лише першу. Ми почали з Susi 6с+ , яка була неймовірна легка за місцевими стандартами. Дуже довга цілком логічна лінія по щілині. Наступного ранку ми розминалися на 6b Il Nonno Ciclista з щіловим лазінням, та обоє її не залізли з першої спроби, а другу робити не стали. У нас було по невеликому проекту на ці вихідні - 7а+ Danza Macabra у мене, та 7c Neurotica у Кості. Обидві відчувалися неймовірно складними, можливо спека додала до цього. Проте траси фантастичні, з великою кількістю каланетів і затяжним ключем перед станцією, саме такі я люблю...